What is the drive that keeps you moving when the faith is no longer a response to life? What is it that keeps you going on when you feel that all hope is doomed? What Is the force within that keeps you moving??, forces you to get up and be?, maybe a very Deep inner certainty that life is good after all and a miracle will come up today to tell you that no matter what you will not fall down and that no matter what today is the day. Today is the day of the answer and again the hope that future is good after all.
Cause today is the first day of Hanukah, the festival of lights and miracles and today is the day that something will come up and a miracle touch me and inspire me and heal me cause I keep thinking how deeply downward path I am letting myself in, I try not to read myself these past 70 plus days, I tried a humorous insight and all I can read is despair, indeed the journeys down are full of not always good feelings and the past analysis is not always nice but at least it should be a bit funny. I guess I have been in my 2 first years of excitement a sort of alcohol effect that you can do it all and everything is good and there’s no problems ahead but then the second stage is coming down to reality and reality is not a cup of wine, reality is hard and hard working and getting used to everything new, some you like some you long for. But today is the first day of Hanukah in my opinion the most significant along with Yom Haatzmaut important days in our history, not involved only in religious issues but in the long for survival of ourselves.
And 8 days ahead to stay good, hopeful, happy and wait for my personal miracle.
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