Day 134 January 25th, 2011

And the doc said I could not dance no longer, he killed me, he took away the woman in me and left me aging, he killed me, he took what was left of a dying youth and he left me aging, I can be a grandmother, I can be a mom but what about being a woman, enjoying what is left, I hope for many years to come, just a spectator ?? a witness of other's enjoying like I have been for the most part in my life ??........he killed me but I guess I will go on as if he hadn't say a word after all what is it life about if not magic and will and the story you make up for yourself ?, I can't age this young I just can't, it's too early and I won't.