Life was good today, hope it is the beginning of a good cycle, hope I have left the bad one behind. Hope and dreams of things getting better, hope and dreams of magic ahead of starting over of second chances to stop doing mistakes and start taking good choices, hope of adjusting wisely to new ages and style and ways of life and taking care of my spirit and soul and body, this body that is giving me so much trouble lately and a source of an on going state of worries and sorrows and shadows and being constantly afraid of more operations and fixing up all the damages the wrong doings the mal praxis and the way I treated myself to end up mistreating myself, cause what on earth brought this about what on earth did I do to get here ?? being afraid of life afraid to walk through life afraid of being myself, trying to copy a grandmother’s condition, what hysteria in my deeper self made me inflict so much cruelty on myself…….and this meant to be a funny insight into myself and ended up being a constant claim of life……
Cause today I am 62...........
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