Day 148 February 8th, 2011

And the question was, Was is it God to you ?? and my answer is that I really don't know. It is a complete emotional subject, started off with the bearded father figure in childhood and I could never ever get rid of him/her/it................it is like someone some meters above in the sky to whom I am always talking to, never stopped though I have tried cause sometimes I am very mad at him/her/it and so forth. Cause I wanted to make it an intellectual experience and I couldn't  and I can't and I keep talking to him and thinking about him though in general I feel so pissed off, I think he's not treating me fairly..............