Day 150 February 10th, 2011

And in a few days I will live married again and what will it be llike again ?? cause after some 15 months apart you develop a certain attitude of doing everything as if you were alone. What changes will you notice and get mad about. How much time to regain intimacy, get adjusted, get used to their new ways and customs and you feel a certain anxiety and joy but today the compu in a way has made many things so much easy that you are prepared for surprises. But years ago, though obviouly the photos had been invented but my mother didn't use the phone to call me or a photo to update me so each passing year when she would come to Peru for her annual visit I had to adjust the past image to the one I had before me and at the begining it was fine but at a point when aging was doing her job it got harder, sader and very tough to swallow, cause apart from all or our conflicts, digesting the idea of an aging mother is no good and it doesn't feel good and the last minute hope I had that even we have had a bad relantionship she could be my stick to hold on for a little longer