Day 107, December 29th, 2010

3 days to go and so many phantoms to conjure up so many ghosts to bury so many issues to part from and so much healing yet to do, 3 days to go for a new re birth for a new reborn for a new baptism in the waters of life in the mikveh of purity and mysticism and so much to do and no time at all to it all cause the journey is still too long and hard and tough and from inside, the make up is no good, the charade is false and the lies are a pretence of changes that are hard to conjure up and difficult to meet


Cause deep down I let no one get in and I let nothing go out, cause I need to get hold and a tough grip even to the things I want to let go for ever cause changes are so hard

And so difficult to meet cause it is hard and painful to look you up at the mirror of the reality, the sorrow the past and the pain and what in the past was a place of illusion and a permission to do grown up things today is the painful knowledge that you have yet one year less to set the record straight, to start over, to start deep, and to smile where you would want to cry and really make it in life cause life is no more………..