Day 126, January 17th, 2011

And 10 days to go...........the funny thing is that I always have two very close dates when people want/try/swear/dream on changes for good, the New Year and one's birthday, I get them 27 days apart but till now 2011 has brought none and my birthday, well..........according to my personal omens is bringing none either...........gloomy days of mine, gloomy senseless hopeless scary and void..........what have I learnt after 62 years of living my life, almost nothing.............but we take choices and we pay for them a life........that everything comes back and esp. the bad. That either you are born rich and beautiful and smart or you just fight a life long to get somewhere you will never get and all you have got ahead is hard work. Yes, I know, today I sound bitter and resentful and ugly and hateful, maybe tomorrow or soon enough the sun will shine again and I will feel better, maybe..........