Day 39, October 22nd, 2010

And in the end who is smarter ?? the animals or us ? they provide their children with food, life and freedom. When the time comes they leave with the tools they learnt and off they set for life, no turning back no looking back, no parents no nest, no obligation, no nothing. Nobody suffers cause each one goes on with their lives till next time, next eggs, next babies next nest...........But we want to let go and we can't, we give freedom but we never do, we suffer the empty nest, we are glad to know we set them free with a lot of tools for survival and happiness and all but in the end we never let go, we suffer, love hurts, love loves and warms but hurts. We enjoy their happiness and freedom but we want to be part of it, we never let go completely, selfless, unconditionally, our love is always conditional sometimes even radical and tough, we never let go....we want to be needed, looked at, also looked after and get sad if they don't, it is a triumph of our upbringing them if they don't real need us, but we want to, we need to, we never let go.......we have memory, attachment, dreams, we can't bear it to just stay aside and simply watch and witness nature, love, their own growth, that of their own children..........how they dare !