Day 40, October 23rd, 2010

My swimming pool, my private mikveh. My cleansing place, my ballet, my dream where I can raise my feet the height I choose, where the non-law of attraction fits my dreams, goals, wonders and I can do it all, my floating spirit and soul and body and I can raise my legs and fly and swim cause the non-law of attraction works my way for once. All the thoughts come pouring in like a stream and a water flow, everything is possible, even bending over properly to stretch my arms and hug my grandchildren from their height. We give so many things for granted, we keep them for granted, we never think about them, till reality strikes back and you just can't sit on your knees and stretch your arms to hug and welcome and attract, and never more..........and you need to adjust or die, accept or die, and go on..........and know that you can still stretch your arms and hug and bend only to my height and adjust cause in the end you can also hug with your words, caresses and love and it is also good. In my private mikveh I can do it all, swing and swirl and lift them so high I can touch the sky and be able to do it all, maybe I should live in the water, a hot pond with all my ducks and grand ducks and never let them go.