Day 47, October 30th, 2010

Where has the time gone so fast ?, Yesterday it has been only the 1st in October, today it is off !, where when and how have I missed it ?? I know I lived them all just cause I have kept record on this blog but just cause of this reason, other than this, I don't understand how did it go so fast ? Or is it high time I really decide to make each moment a life moment, a live moment, The moment, cause life simply flies away for good. What I have built or not built is no longer relevant......building for the future no more relevant, this is the future, the past the present, this is it, there is no more than this precise moment, right now this moment is already gone too.........gone forever........still need to make a home, not a house, a home..........the nest, the place, my place. Landed I have but still a stranger in a strange land. Even if I wanted to leave there's no place right now I could call home, there is no home to go to. And my mom is in a home and I hurt cause no matter what, nobody should end up in a home that it's not your home, among strangers that speak a strange language, a language you need to make yours or be doomed to being dead.